Lessons on Attachment
Three years ago, I went through one of the darkest moments in my entire life and I remember one night looking up at the stars asking for guidance. The next day I went to Sedona and found a silver pendant, right between my feet that read this message: It’s the journey. You have to depart to arrive. There it was, my reassurance from the universe that all was in divine order and that I was alright. That pendant, along with many other irreplaceable items was stolen from my home last week. Devastation, confusion, anger, and sadness are just a few words that can describe the mix of emotional shit I’ve been feeling the past week. Why did this happen? Who would’ve done this? These are some of the questions I’ve asked myself over and over again. I go up and down, manically retracing every conversation and burying myself in a wave of “if only”.
This event has made me rewind, recalling on my past experiences and the waves of pain and heaviness I’ve felt before. I’m remembering and honoring all the shit I’ve been through. I’m processing. I’m letting go. When it comes down to it, this is my biggest test. Attachment. Fucking attachment. I’m attached to the symbology and material item that triggers my sentiment and memory. The silver lining in this is that no one can ever take away from me the memory of those items. I’ll never forget the day I found that pendant. I’ll never forget when my dad gave me the opal ring when I was 6. I’ll never forget the feelings of gratitude and love that came with these items. That’s just what they are really, just physical material. Nothing more. Nothing less.
What a true test of my path and of my practice. I am strong. I am a warrior. I am a yogi. I am a goddess. I am a divine soul, a guiding light of the cosmos. Take my karma, take it all. Thank you, whoever you are. Thank you for relieving me of my karma and for giving me virtue. Thank you for teaching me one of my biggest lessons in life and for giving me the opportunity to grow. I hope you find true peace within your soul. I bless you and in closing–I recognize that we share the same light within, that we come from the same center and that we are all one. Namaste.